I Look Good in Spit-up

How about you?

You see, I thought that since I'd already had one kid that I knew what to expect the next go-around (even though everyone says that they are all different). I wasn't just wrong, I wasn't even close to being in the same book as right.

By this point Jordyn was sleeping through the night (8 weeks old), but Emery is giving us a run for our money! She still has to eat in the middle of the night, which in of itself isn't so bad. It's all the doctors' appointments plus my desperate attempt to get some sort of routine down. Emery has a mild heart murmur that we're hoping says mild (we'll find out in July), and she is having a rough time gaining weight. So just about every week we're in the doctor's office yet again trying to figure out how to get her to eat. In the heart murmur info the cardiologist gave us it said that if the murmur is moderate to severe that it can make it hard for the child to gain weight. So now I worry about whether or not the murmur is getting worse OR whether or not she's just going to be petite like Jordyn (Gee, thanks Cory for those scrawny genes). It doesn't help that Emery spits up so much so I'm starting to wonder if she's trying out as the understudy for Old Faithful.

Worrying. That's what parenthood is all about. Constant worrying. Just when you think that you couldn't possibly worry anymore the worry wagon swings by to hand out new assignments. I figure that it's good though. Wait. Don't make that face just yet, let me explain. I figure that if we get this much practice caring and worrying about another person that we learn to look outside ourselves which is generally a very good thing. What I mean by this is that it's so easy getting caught up on ourselves, and that doesn't usually end up well for anyone. All it does is give us way too much time to beat ourselves up or convince ourselves we're way cooler than we actually are. So, thanks parenthood for attempting to teach me how to actually be a cooler version of myself. Now let's just hope that I don't ruin two girls in the process:)